Some people don't like the label of girlfriend or boyfriend. I think it a show of ownership, something off limits, or a safe zone? I know for a fact that I have little to no idea. I just recently got out of a relantionship that lasted for a little over a year. He was a cool guy, it was just his temper and his expectations. He had a lot of good qualities. I don't regret going out with him. He was my first boyfriend since I left high school. Though, relationships in high school are worthless and just simple puppy love. Nothing real. Relationships take a lot of work. I don't feel like he did anything to keep me with him. No, that's a lie. He did in the past, but then stopped. He had me and then he didn't. We ended on a break and I turned it into a break up because breaks are nothing but false hope. Then we went back out and he didn't trust me because another guy popped up and I was accused of cheating. The entire time I was confused and knew I didn't cheat. I don't know. I talked to my co-workers for advice and opinions. I ended up breaking up with him because the last phone conversation was horrible. He'd say sorry but than yell at me for something else, like 3-4 times. I broke up with him the next morning. In all honesty, I was scared of him because he said he would use every thing against me int he future. You can't make that seem like a good thing. I couldn't deal with that. He's really good with using words while I am not.
After I left him, the new guy popped up again. I appreciate his company but we are not in a relantionship. I enjoy his company because it's something I care about when looking for someone. Someone who won't complain about me not talking. I don't know. After getting out of a relantionship, anything is possible. We already talked about the "rebound." I though I was the rebound and he thought he was the rebound. It was amusing. He's easy to talk to and he's sweet. He's talented and very passionate. It's a bit different from what I just got out of but we're both just testing the water. So far I like the temperature but I don't want to go too fast, though I'm sure it's too late for that.
I've never just dated people. I always just went straight into the relantionship of being labeled as a girlfriend. I want to be happy. I want to see what's out there, but I just can't help but miss what I just got out of. I miss him. I do. Just right now isn't the time for me to be doing this with what all has happened. Only time will tell and hopefully something good will come my way.